Friday, September 7, 2018

Threads of Reality

Threads of Reality  ©2018 Joan M. Newcomb, CPC

If you look at your life from an expanded perspective, you’ll see that it’s an interweaving of storylines. I don’t feel that any of these are set in stone, they’re more liquid threads of possibilities that we can engage in. I’m currently engaging with several of these and it’s fascinating to look back to see how they’ve floated into my reality at different points.

A year or so ago, I was musing about my brother and his wife who live in Queens, and what would happen to them if one of them died. Her only child lives in Taiwan. In this kind of daydream I was in I realized they clearly would need help. And I knew that I’d go out to help them, although it meant confronting fears and unknowns (I cannot drive freeways, I know nothing about Queens).

It was one of those random kind of thoughts, I don’t know what triggered it. My family isn’t super close. I have two other brothers, one lives in Pennsylvania - I visited them once in 1999. They have three adult children and numerous grandchildren.

My other brother lives near me, we only see each other for funerals and weddings, it seems. He’s married, and he has four adult children and a couple of grandchildren. 

My assumption is whatever comes up, for those two guys, the adult children will be able to step into handle things.

But I worried about my little brother, or at least I did at that moment. And our main connection is playing Words With Friends. He was the one who drove down from New York every long weekend between April 2011 when my mother was diagnosed with Alzheimer’s when my caregiving journey began in earnest (although in a way, it had begun years before) and January 2013 when she passed. They’d given me much needed breaks.  So I felt they were the only ones who’d really pitched in and helped. 

And then I forgot about it.

At the beginning of August my little brother abruptly stopped playing Words With Friends. His last move was about August 5th, and our last little side chat on WWF was late July when he complained about the heat in NY and an earache. So I felt something was up. But sometimes they go on trips, and maybe this was one of those times. I posted a note on his Facebook timeline, “Hej, Bro - haven’t seen you on line in a couple days. Has the heat done you in? Hope your ear is feeling better! <3”

A week passed and I sent an email. And a day later heard back from my sister in law, “Matt has had a stroke on the back of his head. They are moving him to rehab next week”.

That was August 16th. And looking at my note on his timeline, it was written on August 11th, which was about the day he went into the hospital.

A series of emails followed to determine if they needed help and even if I’d be welcome to help or if I’d just be in the way. Then the weekend before Labor Day it got affirmed, so I booked a ticket for Sept. 2nd and have been here since.

There are other threads, with friends, clients, other relatives that are weaving into the reality that is unfolding here.

Like my two year cycle with my mother (which was really a 7 year cycle and really a lifetime), this current situation is coming into reality with no clear script of the future. 

I’m here, “boots on the ground”, offering assistance and, as I can see, healing in a myriad of ways I could not possibly have imagined.

Now, he’s not dying, so I’m not midwifing him out of body, as I did with my mother. You could say I am midwifing someone into a new phase of their life. 

I have no idea what each day will bring, even if there are prewritten scripts, I’ll just show up and improvise.

Regardless of what threads in your life are weaving together, you’re in charge of how you respond or react to them. You can interrupt longstanding patterns by responding differently. And ultimately you’re at choice on whether to engage in any of them. 

Friday, August 31, 2018

The Power of Forgiveness


The Power of Forgiveness ©2018 Joan M. Newcomb, CPC

Someone told me recently that forgiveness is an act, not a feeling. You can declare forgiveness and deal with the emotions later. I've now heard it from two other sources since, which really makes it seem like a comment from the Universe.

You know, forgiveness isn't saying what they did was right, forgiveness isn't about them at all, it's about releasing you from continuing to be injured by them.

Jim Self of Mastering Alchemy says, “You can’t take your baggage with you” into the new Consciousness that’s emerging. Nothing keeps you weighed down like resentments. Nothing keeps you tethered to the past like reliving stories of past injuries done to you.

Forgiveness is releasing negative energy to be recycled into positive energy. When we let go through forgiveness, it can be incredibly uplifting.

I was reflecting on a couple people who infuriate me with their apparent ignorance of their transgressions against me. And yet when I look back on the circumstances, many years ago now, I can see that it was probably a case of miscommunication, of my not being clear enough, or persistent enough, in explaining my situation at the time.

At the risk of being Biblical, “Forgive them, Father, for they know not what they do.”

The Mister Rogers quote showed up on my Facebook timeline this morning as I was contemplating this blog post. “The only thing evil can’t stand is forgiveness,” Fred Rogers said. How profound. It renders evil completely powerless over you, and your mind.

I think of evil as the cesspool created by our collective negative thoughts. It’s actually a morphic field, to me sticky black energy, that seems to have a life of it’s own. I notice people struggling with addictions vulnerable to this energy. Recovery helps them step into the light.

So when you declare forgiveness, it releases you from that dark, painful place that we dwell in when we’re entangled with resentments. When we keep reliving the negative things people said or did to us, we give them tremendous power. Do you really want that? Do you want horrible people to hold power of you? Do you want broken, fallible, dysfunctional, people to keep you from your own happiness?

I think of Consciousness (the Universe, Divine, True Creative Essence, whatever term you choose) as  a great reservoir of love, light, and wisdom. Anything of value, anything that we think we may have lost, actually still exists energetically in Consciousness.

When you forgive, you create space to receive that energy back from Consciousness. You reclaim your power from them, and that black cesspool of unconsciousness.

At some point, in our Consciousness shift, our spiritual evolution, we’ll be in a state of perpetual forgiveness. Our energetic bodies will be at such a high frequency of light that negative energy won’t be able to exist. I notice when I do my Meetups, I end up being at such a space of non-resistance, negative energy passes right through.

If this seems impossibly difficult at the moment, rest assured that you don’t have to instantaneously forgive everyone on your resentment list. You can take baby steps. You can become willing. And, you may need to start with yourself!

Friday, August 24, 2018

Everyone is Evolving, Some Just Don't Know It


Everyone is evolving, some just don't know it. ©2018 Joan M. Newcomb, CPC

One of my clients said the other day, "it's happening to everyone, isn't it?". She meant the shift that she is now fully aware that she's experiencing. And my answer is, yes, everyone is evolving, some just don't know it.

Everyone is going through this shift in Consciousness. We're all perceiving it differently. For some folks, it's exhilarating. For some it's painful and terrifying.

It looks completely different for everyone. If you have a spiritual practice of any sort, you'll know *something* is going on. It's a huge, honking, growth experience. But for others who are used to being in every day reality, it seems like their world falling apart.

Whatever you hold as solid and real is disintegrating. For me it was my energy work, because the unseen was solid and real to me. Everything I'd trained in, everything I'd taught, everything I believed, got turned on it's ear. My old techniques were like Newtonian Physics, measurable and certain. My new reality was like Quantum Physics, unpredictable and random.

It's affected people's personal identity. My husband lost his career in the crash of 2008, but reawakened his spiritual practice. And even that is shifting now in ways he can't explain.

A loved one, with three Master's Degrees and in the midst of writing his Ph.D dissertation, just had a stroke. It's effectively knocking him "off line" for the good part of a year. He's identified with academia his entire life. And now he's experiencing something completely different.

Here's how I see it, from a bigger viewpoint. Consciousness is the greater awareness, the essence of who we each are. It is a higher vibration, a brighter light, coming more into form. It means that we're each experiencing our essential greater consciousness more in our body than ever before. We're all becoming more "enlightened".

When you shine a spotlight inside yourself, it reveals whatever is stuck, dark or dense. Whatever we identify as reality will have that density. Whatever we are attached to or believe that we are, will be a heavier vibration. Whatever lies we hold as truth, will be dark within.

And all of that is disintegrating, as our light shines brighter and brighter.

As that old stuff goes away, we'll feel expanded. We may notice our external reality being different as well, lighter, and less grounded (because gravity is changing as well).

It's ultimately a good thing, we're all becoming more authentically our True Selves. But we've been crouched down in distorted perceptions for a long time, so it's a big adjustment to stand up free and fully ourselves.

It's an exciting time, from the perspective of Consciousness. And we can have compassion for the other aspects of Consciousness who are having an extremely uncomfortable time.

Breathe and release, as we all contract and expand. And know that all is very, very well.

Friday, August 17, 2018

What's coming out of the woodwork now? The pendulum swings in another direction.

What's coming out of the woodwork now? The pendulum swings in another direction. ©2018 Joan M. Newcomb, CPC

I just completed a year of being president of my toastmasters club and I pretty much sucked at it. I'm a reluctant leader. I want everyone to lead themselves.

So I was frustrated when folks stepped up to officer positions with no interest of actually doing the job, they didn't even read the leadership manual that said what duties were expected. I think of folks like these as 'seat warmers'. They're just there occupying space, and in some ways taking a lot of energy as well.

But in a volunteer organization, you can't expect people to do anything. You can just appreciated the ones who are present and show initiative.

In the world we see everyone is becoming more internally empowered and self governing. That's what this evolution is about, accessing your own internal power and own internal wisdom and creating your reality from that space, that energy. it's not about doing it because someone else told you to, or doing it to impress someone else.

At the same time there's increased networking and interdependency. People are working together for the common good. so when you observe a group of people who are working towards what only benefits themselves, to the detriment of the whole, it's especially irritating. There's increased intolerance for those kind of folks.

We're all in charge of our own reality. We don't need gurus. We need peers and mentors, people who've walked this way to show us options. But we also need space to experiment and try our own ways.

I like coaching and teaching because it empowers people to do it for themselves. Coaching sees you as whole and complete. If you have a dilemma then you have within you the resources to resolve it. As good coach will ask powerful questions that allows you to connect with your inner wisdom and discover what's right for you.

During the last presidential campaign I observed a lot of low-vibration, dark energy, crawling out of the woodwork. It was coming to the surface to be cleaned and I assumed it would clear by the election. But the infestation was deeper than could be imagined, which is why the clearing process it taking so long.

So now I'm noticing a lot of high-vibration, light energy, emerging. It is fiercely coming forward with truth and integrity.

It's exciting to see how Consciousness is evolving into form. What isn't in alignment with it will disintegrate.

If this feels daunting, if this feels scary, just know that's your body-personality, the part of you that is physical reality and so interprets these changes from a survival level. When you as Consciousness anchor into your body, it calms and reassures it.

Then you can be excited about the changes, and amused by the drama. Then you can enjoy the roller coaster ride called life.

Friday, August 10, 2018

How to Handle All This Darkness

How to Handle All This Darkness ©2018 Joan M. Newcomb, CPC

Right now we're in the dark side of the moon, we're having a new moon eclipse tomorrow. It's the 3rd of three eclipses that started a month ago. People have been going huge growth spaces. I'm not an astrologer, but I see astrology as an energetic component of the hologram, that is the world we're creating as Consciousness. It's like energy weather.  We can use it to our advantage, like wind in our sails.

So eclipses open doors, create sudden new changes, beginnings and endings. But they also 'eclipse things', which sometimes means shining light hidden things but also means not everything is fully revealed. Change can be initiated that doesn't become fully clear for a month to six months.

So we're going through dark times, some of us are fumbling around, many of us are frustrated that there isn't enough light yet. Especially those of us who are light bringers and healers, who want to illuminate, enlighten, clear, and restore to wholeness.

I have to confess, I'm still a little afraid of the dark. But that's because I sense denser energies as I move through it. In my last house, which was built in 1905, I always felt energy just outside the bedroom door (which made it real fun to go to the bathroom at night).

In my current house, which was built in 1956, the family that lived in it 60+ years has had at least two members that have passed. So I'll feel the presence of one in our hallway (most likely the one who passed most recently). I've just learned to walk through it without resisting.

In the old days, I'd do an exorcism. In recent times, I've just been navigating around it. But it occurs to me to do a different kind of energy work, a kind of house blessing, which brings it into present time. It gently releases energies absorbed from the past and assists them to their next level of evolution.

And that so ties in with what is going on in the world today. Darkness is coming out of the woodwork, as increasing light of Consciousness is coming into physical form. It feels more intense as it is being seen more clearly.

It feels like historical patterns, that no longer fit in our current state of evolution. It's bubbling up from our unconscious, and playing out by unconscious people.

When I am in the present moment, the past ceases to exist, it goes away. 

You can do this for yourself, very simply, by bringing yourself into Present Time. Bring your focus into the present moment. Imagine bring it back from all other places in that you've had your attention on, throughout time and space. What you may notice is sensations within you, and sounds around you, become more acute or clear as you're fully present to notice them. 

You can also do this by creating a focal point of Consciousness within you, wherever you place as your center. This is you bringing your full light into the present moment, which can effortlessly release all non-presences within you.

Do this whenever you think of it, and notice how it changes your perception. It will have a ripple effect out into the rest of your reality as well.

Try this for the next seven days and see what happens!


Friday, July 27, 2018

What Does The Consciousness Shift Feel or Look Like?

What Does The Consciousness Shift Feel or Look Like? ©2018 Joan M. Newcomb, CPC

On December 21st, 2012, there was supposed to be a dynamic evolutionary event. A disaster movie was made about it. People said that not everybody was going to survive it. Even I was saying, back then, that everyone was going to be changed. But we all woke up on December 22nd, 2012, and everything seemed the same.

Now, I'm still talking about the Consciousness shift, that everyone is going through it, just that people are using different words to describe it. People are experiencing it in their own unique ways.

What happened back in 2012 was a shift, beyond the Mayan Calendar moving into a new 5,000 year cycle. Everything seemed the same, because the hologram isn't fundamentally different. But we did go through an "upgrade", and actually the internal design continues to change.

Consciousness Shifts don't necessarily happen overnight, unless you're Byron Katie or Eckart Tolle. And they don't necessarily look like instant enlightenment. Although they can.

Everyone has their own timing. The Shift that I experienced happened in 2006, over about a year or two. And it hasn't stopped.

For me it is an evolution. 2006 was a very difficult period, since all my beliefs were turned upside down and inside out. But, honestly, if I look back over my life, there's been upheavals and paradigm shifts every few years.  However, 2006 accelerated me on my path in a very noticeable way.

What does the Consciousness Shift feel or look like? It can look like a breakdown and breakthrough. Your life may fall apart and rebuild. You may lose all hope and sense of purpose, and then your inner world reorganizes. Or it may be exhilarating and exciting. Like you've found the missing piece to the puzzle.

You might have greater clarity, more access to your inner knowing. And/or you may dive deep into fighting against things you resist, to dismantle everything that seems to be in the way of your path.

Some people might be very frightened at this time. Because their reality seems to be breaking down. Everything they believed in, even their own identities, who they thought they were, is disintegrating.

We can see that reflected in the outside world by increased aggression,  authoritarianism, dominance. Those are old power games that are impotent in this new reality. Those that felt defined by these measurements, are extremely threatened.

How you're experiencing it depends on how you perceive reality, and what you hold to be real. If you're a visual person, the world may be starting to look very different. There may be some days where colors look sharper, things look brighter and more defined. Or it looks like you're on a movie set like in the Truman show.

I feel things internally, so I'm noticing heightened sensitivity, extreme empathic and telepathic impressions (I've tuned in to my family members for years but it's now 100% more intense). And my inner energy system feels different. Yet again.

When I try to judge what's happening to me through old filters, I could say I'm being spacey, ungrounded, that I'm not owning my space. But that puts me into a space of effort and resistance (very familiar energies but they don't feel good nor are they productive).

Whatever is going on for you, it's most likely part of this Consciousness shift. Validate the changes you're going through. It's not happening to you, it's you embodying your greater Self as Consciousness, and that's causing a seismic shift in everyone's reality.

When I accept that the change I'm experiencing is just another part of the shift, it's less uncomfortable. I can allow to it be different. I'm excited to see how it unfolds. I invite you to do the same!

Friday, July 20, 2018

In The Present Moment, There Is No Story

In The Present Moment, There Is No Story ©2018 Joan M. Newcomb, CPC

I often feel like I’m the keeper of family secrets. Things I’ve seen or heard, witnessed that others haven’t. If I’m the only one who knows or remembers, does it make it real?

A few years ago I helped someone die at home. After helping my mother pass, I kinda sorta knew what I was stepping into, or so I thought.

It was a completely different experience.

Now, deaths are like births, everyone creates their own unique circumstances,whether they’re exiting the body or entering it. People gather for the event, that is they come into their lives (or come into their lives again) wittingly or unwittingly.

My mother's passing was peaceful. I lay in bed beside her for 21 days giving her sips of water, as she birthed herself back to Spirit.

The other experience was chaotic. Their spouse was angry at them for dying, and enraged it was happening at home. They refused to give them pain medication, and in the last few days hospice assigned me to do so otherwise the person would have had to go to hospital.

Yet we were able to arrange family to Skype, or to show up, in those last few days, before they finally were able to leave.

Things got even more intense after their passing. And after I came home, I started having post traumatic stress symptoms - "startle" reflexes that took a long time to subside. And I would awake in the middle of the night replaying the story of the wrongs that had been done, over and over again, how I have scanned documents as proof, etc.

Now, that was over four years ago, but last week the startle reflexes came up out of the blue. I wondered if it had something to do with the holiday (the veils are thinner between worlds at such times).

And recently I had an email that entered me into that world again. And I had a really horrible sleepless night revisiting the experiences of the past.

Now I have no idea what the story has been on that side of things since all that happened. But I do sense that people are in still great grief, and that is sad.

It's my story about the past that can still cause me pain. What injustices were done, what inconsiderations, what people did or did not do. But none of that is real now.

In the present moment there is no story. There is nothing going on but what is happening now. Now, I'm in my living room as I'm typing this. The clock is ticking. There is trickling water from the fish tank. Outside my windows there are hundred foot tall Douglas firs standing as silent guardians.

In the present moment I am restored to Consciousness. There is clarity, there is light, there is simplicity. It is an enormous feeling of Presence. I breathe, and release, knowing that it's a benevolent Universe and all is very, very well.


Friday, July 13, 2018

When Getting Back On Track Reveals A Completely Different Path

When Getting Back On Track Reveals A Completely Different Path ©2018 Joan M. Newcomb, CPC

It's been a hard couple of years. Something happened that knocked me off course. When I look back, I can recognize certain signs. In January of last year, I started having reactions to the house I was living in, I felt it had turned toxic on me. And since I work from home, there was no escaping it.

And then my dog started having seizures. We had just bought tickets to visit my son who was in school in Germany and I asked the vet whether we should go. She said the seizures were unpredictable and the tests didn't indicate anything serious that we could do anything about.  And she said she was a believer in going ahead and living your life.

So we went, and when we got back, our dog was limping. It turned out that what we thought was arthritis and a benign fatty lump on her leg, was actually cancer. So we had a horrific four weeks while she died on our kitchen floor.

And right after that our landlord gave us notice. Which was fine with me, since the house was toxic. (We later found mold throughout the basement, and evidence it had been painted over prior to our moving there in 2013). But we didn't find a new place to live until 7 days before we had to be out of there.

But that was last year. And this year has been fairly calm. The new place is wonderful, clean, and spacious. But something is still off course.

And when I look back, it had started before all the things with the previous house. Although all those things occurred because it was definitely time for us to move.

So what was it? I've been telling people I've been going through a phase of feeling like an atheist. I thought it was simply because I'd shifted to a new level of Consciousness, where the personality had gone out of it. But it really was a spiritual void. What happened?

I'd completely forgotten being side swiped by the election at the end of 2016.

Someone had texted me that night saying, "what parallel universe are we in"???

I'm pretty good in a crisis so I took the event in my stride, but it did really feel like we were all shoved into an alternate reality.

And, honestly, it caused me to doubt my work. Because I teach people that they can create their reality. And who the fuck wants to own creating this bullshit we've been going through since 2016??

So then I shifted into this space of just responding to is whatever showing up. Going ahead and living my life. None of this visualization, none of this law of attraction, just being with what is. But it hasn't been easy.

And my sensitivity has gone through the roof. I feel all sorts of people's reality. And a lot of the time it gets validated (someone texts, someone posts on Facebook, I can see in real time who I'm sensing).

But the noise from the collective is overwhelming.

A couple weeks ago, I had to get off Twitter, which helps a little bit. But I stay on Facebook because of family and friends. So I react to the memes there and still have big, fat, opinions about the news.

I'm pretty pissed off with what's going on in the external story line. And it feels wrong to be detached from it. It feels wrong to be doing well when so much is being destroyed and so many people are in pain. And I want to manipulate the shit out of reality.

But I only feel this way when I'm totally disconnected from myself as Consciousness. When I'm aligned as my higher self, I can see what's unfolding as all part of the greater expansion.

When I'm aligned as my higher self, I know that it's ultimately getting better. I know that we're *all* very capable, Infinite beings, individually creating our reality.

Observing what is happening in the world from the perspective of Consciousness, it's all very exciting. The more capable we are, the more creative our story lines. We're collectively becoming very capable. We're not off course, we moved to a more challenging one.

Navigating at this level is intuitively driven, an art, not a science. As Consciousness there isn't anything to change, fix, or improve. It all reorganized in our favor.

And that's what I need to remember. As Consciousness, it's a benevolent Universe. Even when it doesn't seem like it on the outside, I know, as Consciousness, all is very, very well.