Attack of the Zombie Gremlins!

Attack of the Zombie Gremlins! ©2017 Joan M. Newcomb, CPC

We all have negative voices in our heads. Dr. Daniel Amen calls them Automatic Negative thoughts. Dr. Jill Bolte Taylor says they're a cluster of cells on the left side of our brain responsible for keeping us organized, reminding us to buy milk on the way home from work, or get our taxes done by the 15th. I realize that it's our body's GPS, containing all the programming we've ever received about how to be in this world.

Our GPS' are filled with outdated maps and misinformation. It's set on "avoid highways" and 'fastest route' at the same time. And if you try to vary your method for getting somewhere, it will loudly protest.  This is your inner Gremlin, your Automatic Negative Thought.

Gremlin voices arise Whenever you try something new, and go beyond the programming from your childhood, whether it's family, societal, cultural, religious or whatever.

Gremlins are familiar, they've been in your head all your life. You don't even realize they're not your own thoughts. You just accept them as reality.

They're incredibly limiting. You can't go beyond their boundaries. They dismiss your dreams.

I woke up in the morning with this thought, "Zombie Gremlins". Reflecting on what is going on in the world today, there seems to be so much unconsciousness. So many people running off their Automatic Negative Thoughts.

They're not even questioning their thoughts, they're just letting this dysfunctional GPS steer them off into the bushes, like some jury-rigged self driving car.

It's easy to do, when you think that you *are* your vehicle, and you think your Automatic Negative Thoughts are real.

You feel powerless to these thoughts, and incapable of changing your route, when it seems like *everyone* is driving this way.

However, when you shift your awareness to your Essential Self, you recognize that your hands are on the wheel. You steer where your attention is.

Take your attention off the negative thoughts, and you start to notice so many more possibilities out in the world. (The ANTS get louder at first, but when you don't feed them with your attention, they fade away).

The bigger reason why Zombie Gremlins seem so prevalent in the world today, is that greater Light is more present in the world today.

Greater Consciousness is more present. And your Essential Self is the You that is Greater Consciousness.

You turn on the lights and exposes the dysfunction. You start to drive differently and your ANTS go nuts. Temporarily.

When ANTS show up during the day, squash 'em, feed 'em to your ANTeater, send 'em to the ANT farm.

Put a bowl of sugar outside the garage before you retire at night, beside the Anteater cage (within tongue licking distance).

Or you can just tell yourself you're going to update your GPS when you go to sleep and your inner computer with automatically reorganize.

Play with this for the next 7 days and your life will totally transform.

Adventures in Density And Effort ii

Adventures in Density & Effort describes my belief of what life on earth is all about. I believe we are Spirit manifesting in this reality for the fun of experiencing the opposite of who We Are.

Spirit is immortal, eternal, and all knowing ( it *is* the cosmic internet). In the non-physical realm, there’s no time – everything is happening at once, and no space – everything is Unity, and no negative emotions – it’s all joy.

What would be fun or entertaining for Spirit, who has everything? To create a reality to experience dichotomies, limitations and opposites!

Physical reality is density, there are atoms and molecules and energy moves slowly or quickly. There’s physical space and distance, there’s the passage of time, cycles of days and seasons.

Our vehicle in this realm is our body which experiences effort to move its muscles, a life cycle of birth, growth and death, emotions of all colors, physical sensations of cold and heat, and each body has a unique personality to go with it. To One who is All that Is, it’s really quite delightful to be many different things!

As Spirit, you signed up for a road trip through life, and chose different elements and ‘stopping points’ along the way. Since you didn’t have a body yet, you didn’t have the considerations of pain and discomfort. From Spirit’s perspective, the harder the better. The more capable Spirit chooses the most challenging lifetime!

So you signed up to have a dysfunctional family, a crazy or alcoholic parent, to experience a traumatic childhood, painful relationships, difficult job situations, all with great enthusiasm and excitement.

Once being born, it’s WTF??? This is miserable! I don’t like this! Get me out of here! That’s all from the perspective of the body/personality. As Spirit, you’re still having a whale of a time.

Any challenge you create, within you is the ability to overcome it. Not from the body/personality perspective, but from your Essential Self, Spirit.
If you listen to someone complaining about their problems, realize that as Spirit they’re boasting about how capable they are! It’s like an actor that has taken on a really juicy role!

Now you have a chance to approach things differently. Once you operate with the awareness that you *are* your Essential Self, you *are* Spirit, the ‘rules’ change
This world isn’t a school, there aren’t grades you have to go through or lessons you have to learn, although it seems like there are skills you need to acquire. It’s actually a playground, a virtual reality game.

Effort doesn’t work on this level. Trying hard doesn’t work. It’s a much more subtle navigational system.

Law of Attraction is one way to describe it, but many people filter the LOA through their body/personality perspective of Effort. It’s like trying (example body vs. spirit) to fly with water wings.

Inner change creates outer change. It’s changing your energy within that alters your outer reality.

This is Your hologram and you’ve forgotten that you’re the one that programs the computer!

Who Am I?

©2010 Joan M. Newcomb

I participate in a group who all, in one fashion or another, follow Robert Scheinfeld's Busting Loose model.  It's interesting to see different people's interpretation of the work.  I've taken the last several months to reflect on what my own Truth is, what feels right and real to me based on my own life experience and learning. 

Someone pronounced how we are all Players in this Human Game and as such we have no power.  I didn't agree with them in the way they were saying it, although as I write this out now, I can agree with the statement.

As Players in the Human Game, we have no power.  The Player self is the part that's running around, engaged in the story and drama, that believes physical reality is real.  It's the part that is fully engaged in the roller coaster of life.

When you want to (and try to) change, fix or improve the Hologram it doesn't work.  You're fighting with the scenery, just pushing the furniture around. 

A clue is if you have a Big, Fat Opinion about your storyline, and feel really strongly that things have to change, you're probably viewing things as your Player Self.  It takes things really seriously.  Everything is life and death to it, since that part isn't going to make it out of the story line alive.

For those of you who are regular readers of my Ezine/Blog, you know I'm talking about the Body/Personality.  It's the 'Meat Suit' you put on to play the Game.  It's the physical form you manifest to play here on the planet.

However, you're also an Infinite Being.  Actually, how *I* would say it, is You are an Infinite Being.  As Such, You created all of this (including your Player Self).  When you shift your perspective and start viewing your life *as* You, your storyline becomes amusing.

For regular readers, you know I also call this your Essence, and in the old days I'd say Spirit.  Consciousness is a good word for it, too.

Abraham-Hicks calls it your Inner Being, but I don't quite agree with that (although I love the term Inner Being).  It still implies that it's something other than Yourself.  You *are* your Inner Being.

If you just view things as your Player Self, you can get stuck in powerlessness.  I know someone who spent the better part of a year lying in bed crying when she hit the first level of Busting Loose.  The story of her life dissolved around her (which She was Creating it to do).  But she wasn't able to get out of it until she started identifying with her Infinite Self.  It didn't mean things stopped disintergrating or the roller coaster ride ended, but she started having more fun playing here.

The other end of the spectrum is when you identify with your Infinite Being but as still viewing it through the lens of personality.  Wow, you are SO POWERFUL, you CREATED ALL OF THIS!  And then ego runs around like a little Napolean, screaming and yelling at people (because IT CREATED ALL OF THEM).  After a while it falls flat on its face and goes back to proclaiming it's powerlessness.

When you're lined up, Infinite Being and Player self, you feel amused, in balance, in agreement with everything that's happening.  You don't need to change, fix or improve anything.  But you do feel at choice with your actions in the game.  Instead of being stuck to the script, you get to improvise. 

When you're acting as an Infinite Being operating through the Player self, You don't get mad at others, because You know they're created by You.  They're Other Aspects of Yourself, in Your hologram to play with.

There's only one Infinite/Essence/Spirit; You are Unity.  You created others to get the experience of individuality and of diversity. 

As Infinite/Essence/Spirit; You are Joy.  You created your Player Self to experience a variety of emotions for the fun of it.

As Infinite, there is no good or bad, no time or space.  All of those things exist in this world because... you guessed it, You wanted the fun of experiencing these things.

When you start seeing things as Infinite/Essence/Spirit, it activates your Knowingness.  Player self only knows what it's experienced since it was born.  As Infinite, You *are* the Cosmic Internet.

Now, Player self is a limited vehicle and there's only just so much You can cram into it.  So if you're saying, "Well how come I don't know my future?  How come I don't have the answer to everything? How come I'm not rich and famous'.  As you expand your awareness, raise your vibration, let go of effort, You can embody it more.  You choose not to know the answer to everything or everything that's coming up, because the game wouldn't be as much fun any more.  How many times can you play tic-tac-toe without getting bored?  On the other hand, isn't chess with all it's myriad of moves and combinations, far more fascinating?

You don't create being rich and famous because, as Infinite, You *are* Abundance.  Experiencing lack is much more interesting!  Even rich and famous people still experience lack.  Will Smith, on the Oprah Show, confessed to waking up in the middle of the night worrying about money.

When you connect inwardly with You, money becomes a non-issue.  It's about trying new and different things, taking risks, going through changes, living life to the fullest.

This week I invite you to shift perspective.  Start viewing your life *as* an Infinite Being.  What would it be like, thinking of all your problems, if you viewed them as the Infinite Being You Are, creating them as fun challenges?  What if You were bigger than your problems?  If you're struggling with another person, boss, friend, relative, partner, what if they were castmembers in Your storyline, You the Infinite Being created to interact with?  You brought them into this game at the perfect time, perfect moment, playing the perfect role for You to bounce off of?

Go throughout your day and week making little shifts in perspective, and see how Your life transforms in 7 days!

Truth & Emotions

(c) 2010 Joan M. Newcomb

One of the things (if not the major thing) that makes this adventure on Playground Earth so fun & yet so challenging is - emotions!

Emotions are your body's communication to You, Essence.  Your body reacts much the same way it did when it was a baby, it cries to let you know it's hungry, tired or needs changing.  As an adult, there are more nuances to your emotions, but it usually drills down to some basic needs.

When You begin to play on a higher awareness level, it's tempting to ignore what your body is saying, because it may slow you down or distract you from your 'spiritual focus'.  Just like a baby, an ignored body just gets louder when ignored.  Listening to your body, responding to it's needs, actually furthers your progress as a cooperative body will take you where you want to go!

If you're an empath, you have an additional challenge because you can feel what others are feeling.  Since none of us as children receive validation for our psychic abilities, our first impression is that all the emotions charging through our space is ours.  I find that others' feelings are more overwhelming to me, and have no basis in what I'm experiencing at the moment.  If you're feeling someone else's intense feelings, send them love and healing energy.  They're not deliberately invading your space, they're just sharing their (albeit uncomfortable) experience with you!

Yes, you are Consciousness creating all of this, *and* You created your body/personality to experience this world through.  Yes, you created everyone else in your hologram, and the hologram is an illusion *and* in your body/personality, you're experiencing it as real.  Everyone else is "real" from your body/personality perspective.  It's only as you shift to the Unity vibration that you can feel the Truth of our connectedness.

As your navigating through this illusion, feelings are your indicator of distortion.  If something causes very intense emotion, there's a lie at work.  You can tell whether an emotion you're feeling is clear or murky.  If it's clear, you feel empowered, energized, awake.  If it's murky, you feel depressed, anguished or even a little crazy.  It's not about positive or negative emotions because they're all just communication.  They're the words your body uses to speak to you, or the music You use to express yourself.  Joy obviously comes from Consciousness, but very clear Anger is a spiritual transformer (it cuts through the lies and limitations).  Fear is always a body level response as your body isn't going to make it out of this lifetime alive!

Stepping into an intense emotion can be a useful navigational technique *if* you pass through to the other side.  It's like jumping waves at the ocean, if a really big one comes along, you can dive right through it.  Some people miss the second part of this technique and get stuck in the emotional level.  Wallowing in misery or foaming at the mouth with rage means you're fighting with the illusions and giving it more power rather than reclaiming power from it!

When you're on the playing field of Earth, you're in direct contact with other players.  When you get tackled it feels very real.  When you're high up in the stands, you can observe yourself and others and see the big picture of the whole game.  It's very exciting but you're not feeling the discomfort of being face down in the mud.  When you're in an airplane overhead, you can see the world and all the little tiny people as your creation.

It's not that other people aren't real, or just cardboard 'extras' in your movie.  Everyone is real at the playing field level, with fascinating storylines all intersecting and playing out simultaneously. You're an Infinite Being and are capable at creating that complexity.  It's not until you're up in the plane that it becomes the illusion that it is.

If you're stiving to be at 'airplane level' the entire time, you're missing the point of being here.  You already *are* airplane level.  You created body/personality and Planet Earth to play in for the sheer joy of feeling physical.  Your point of being here is to feel everything fully, to be fully embodied.  Feel the sun on your face and food in your mouth.  Relish in the pleasure of a bubble bath or sleeping in.  Love people, places and fluffy animals. 

This week, feel your way through life.  Notice what feels clear and what feels murky.  Navigate towards clarity, and see what happens!

Anger - a good thing

(c) 2009 Joan M. Newcomb

Lately, I've been feeling grouchy at times. It's surprising to me since I'm usually in a good mood. It's happening frequently enough that I've come to realize that it's part of my growth space, something I'll talk about later in this article.

When I do psychic readings, I sometimes notice varying shades of red in a client's aura. Red is life force energy. Sometimes it's dark red, which is frustration or blocked energy. Sometimes it's volcanic. Sometimes it's just a pure flow.

How comfortable we are with that vibration depends on our background and our natural tendencies. People who are Italian, or lawyers, or sales people, run this vibration with ease. Upper middle class WASPs and people who had an out of control parent tend to not feel safe with this energy, even if it's their own.

At it's essence it's an invigorating life force energy. It helps 'cut the crap', remove blocks and gives you the energy to go where you need to go or do what you need to do. In a dysfunctional state it's invasive and abusive.

Coming out of a dysfuctional childhood or marriage, we may have learned to repress our anger in order not to enrage the abuser. We may have learned to be invisible, or manically cheerful. We're so used to having our boundaries crossed by someone else's anger, we don't feel entitled to respond (abusers usually make you feel you deserved the abuse, and make themselves the victim if you do stand up for yourself).

As you recover from your childhood or marriage, it's a sign of growth when someone behaves badly towards you and you feel angry! Anger is a signal that your boundaries have been crossed. Anger is the inner you standing up for yourself.

Anger can also come up as part of your natural growth if you've been putting up with an intolerable situation for too long. It helps dissolve the blocks keeping you from moving forward.


I've been experiencing levels of frustration for the last couple of months. Energetically I can see the chunks of concrete floating in my aura! The image I get is of a star ship navigating it's way through space debris. Some of it is my own personal history and some of it is societal patterns. I know it's about dropping behaviors where I devalue myself and situations that undervalue me. (In Robert Scheinfeld's Phase 2 perspective, it's all me, inner and outer).


I've been reading a lot of people going through career transitions and the trend I see is towards right livelihood, doing work that is in integrity with their Essential Selves. If they're in a career or job that isn't right for them, they're feeling discontent. If their Essential Self created being laid off, they're having trouble finding work in their old field, because their Essential Self is wanting to steer them in the direction of what makes their heart sing!


A lot of people feel hesitant about taking the risk towards Right Livelihood because they think they can't make a living that way. In reality, their lives will be more abundant when they do. Prosperity always flows when you're in alignment with your Essential Self.


As you start to steer towards your Right Livelihood, where your Essential Self is calling you, you may feel some anger as you begin to pull out of old patterns. It's okay. You don't have to gnaw off the bindings or bark at those other characters in your story line you perceive. You can just imagine it as a 'force field' in front of your star ship (the edge of your aura) disintegrating whatever's been keeping you from boldly going where you're meant to go!


A simple navigational tool (one I believe I mentioned last week) -- to make decisions that are in your own best interest. If it's been so long since you've done that, it feels like this - you feel happy or elated when you go in that direction. You feel tense or dissatisfied (or 'the same') when you don't. Or that direction just looks and feels brightest, and the other way is duller or darker.


Try this for the next week, with each decision you make, go in the direction that feels brightest or makes you happy. And see how your entire Universe changes!