Beauty Amidst Ugliness

Beauty Amidst Ugliness ©2018 Joan M. Newcomb, CPC

I’m currently in Queens, NY. It’s a completely different urban experience than Seattle. The population of the borough of Queens is 2,350,000. The population of Seattle is a little under 705,000.

Besides the density, it’s an area that’s been lived in for a long, long time. There’s dirt, sweltering heat, smells, and... peaks of beauty.

There are little reminders everywhere that beauty exists even in the midst of ugliness. And, as any artist will tell you, there’s beauty in ugliness, too.

We’re seeing different examples of ugliness in the world today, from human behaviors that are unkind or downright evil, to natural disasters intensifying as the climate changes.

It’s easy to get caught up in this reality, feeling swept away by forces that seem more powerful, or out of control.

Yet all of this is a creation of Consciousness, by Consciousness. At your essence, you *are* Consciousness and what you’re experiencing in your reality is created by You.

That doesn’t mean Climate Change is your fault, or that you’re responsible for the shitshow on the news. Or that people are dying because you had negative thoughts.

It means that you’re the composer, conductor, soloist, and lead chair of this orchestra. The music is pretty dramatic and clashing right now. It’s more Wagnerian than Bach. Or maybe in your reality it’s heavy metal.

As Consciousness you delight in all of your creations. Even as it seems frustrating to your body personality aspect. And when you shift your perspective to living life as Consciousness, the surrounding world comes into sharp focus. Colors seem brighter, it feels expansive and effortless.

And on a dingy, graffiti’d street in Flushing, a pink rose will appear to remind you that there is beauty in the midst of ugliness. All of this is indeed a creation of Consciousness.

We’re going through a huge evolutionary shift at this time. Increasing Consciousness is coming into form. We’re able to embody more light than ever before. And as we bring this in, it illuminates the darkness, it reveals where we haven’t dusted, it shows up in our surrounding reality as well.

All the ugliness in the news is a reflection of the darkness that is in the process of dissipating. Shadows go away when light floods in. What we’re seeing collectively is the light of Truth revealing the darkness of lies and distortions. People who’ve lived with those distortions as their reality are experiencing a lot of fear and discomfort.

And within each of us, that which our Light is not in alignment with, is disappearing as well. It can feel like a shock or a loss if you’re strongly attached to those things.

When your relax and allow yourself to operated as Consciousness, everything easily reorganizes in your favor.

Try this, and you’ll discover what manifests is beyond what your mind can possibly imagine.

Shining Light on Obstacles

Shining Light on Obstacles ©2018 Joan M. Newcomb, CPC

Someone said to me that an obstacle is just something requiring more light. It reminds me of trying to go to the bathroom in the middle of the night. We stumble over our shoes and run into open drawers. When there's enough light, we can see our way without hurting ourselves.

When there's enough light, obstacles don't seem so big or impossible. They remind us to put our shoes away and close drawers.

Shining light on obstacles can reshape them into stepping stones instead. Perhaps the stumbling blocks at work are directing you towards a different career.

Why on earth would we cling to an obstacle, instead of letting it go? Because it feels familiar.  We'll stay crouched behind it, no matter how uncomfortable we are, not daring to peer beyond. It's scary out there!

Or, we may be afraid of moving past the obstacle because we imagine everything else in our lives that we value may get lost in the process.

Obstacles aren't always something to destroy. In relationships, perhaps they're an opportunity to become more honest, to go deeper and expand emotionally.

In order to overcome our obstacles we need to shine light on them, to see them clearly for what they are.

If you view this life as a full immersion virtual reality game, you can see obstacles as temporary setbacks that lead to more awareness. The process of changing them shifts you to a new level of Consciousness.

Nothing is ever truly stuck, and no obstacle is insurmountable. Some may have kept you paralyzed for years, some may be truly overwhelming. But the world is full of stories of people overcoming incredible odds, healing from fatal illnesses, rebuilding their lives after losing everything.

This is a realm of stories. When you can lean into the obstacle, shine the light of Presence upon it, the story changes.

But it's how you view this amusement park of experiences that helps you transmute it. If you see yourself as just a character, then you'll feel at the mercy of other things. You'll have a limited amount of choices to make changes.

In trying to be the writer of your story, you'll have limited success. You can bring changes through the realm of thoughts but there will always be glitches or loopholes due to all the unconscious thoughts we have.

If you view yourself as the director, you'll feel more in charge, but you'll also want to control the scenery and other actors.

When you realize that you are the Consciousness that is creating all of this, reality begins to reorganize. There's no need to change, fix, or manipulate the storyline. Obstacles become something to delight in, fun challenges to play with.

As Consciousness, you *are* the light that is shining in the world. You bring your Presence into everything.

Shine your own Light on obstacles, and watch them magically transform.

Even In Darkness, There Is Always Light

Even In Darkness, There Is Always Light  ©2017 Joan M. Newcomb, CPC

We just had the Winter Solstice, in the Northern Hemisphere the shortest day of the year. It means that now the days will start being longer. I find it ironic that it's also the coldest time and with the worse weather.

And as I think about it, the Summer Solstice means the days are starting to get shorter, but August always is the warmest month and the evenings seem to go on forever.

This planet is full of dichotomies.


From an external perspective, Winter is when nature seems to go dormant. The ground is hard, trees have gone bare of leaves. And yet, below the surface, nature is very much alive. Seeds are germinating, and animals are hibernating with their young.

On an unseen level, Earth's architects are planning the future growth cycle. Come the Equinox, these plans will be delivered into form and become physically apparent as the seasons change.

Besides the darkest time of the year, it's often the most painful. Many people pass during the holidays. I personally think this is because the veil between worlds is thinner. 

We go through similar evolutions in our lives, and its feels harder when we cannot see what is coming. We feel like we're in a time of increasing darkness that is never going to end.

And yet, even in darkness, there is always light. It may be that, with all that is happening, we can't feel it. 

No matter what is going on in your life, whatever is occuring in your storyline, there is always reason to hope.

It does get better.

Above the worst blizzard, the sun is still shining.

We Shall Not Regret The Past (Nor Wish To Shut The Door On It)

We Shall Not Regret The Past (Nor Wish To Shut The Door On It) ©2016 Joan M. Newcomb, CPC

We're engaged in an uncivil war. 

In this time of fake news, and with even "real" news regurgitating complete falsehoods, it's too easy to get taken off course by things that are deliberately designed to evoke an emotional reaction.

It's exhausting and distracting and makes even the most enlightened of us forget that we're Consciousness, we're Infinite Beings creating our reality.

Trump's heralding in a new age.

We are actually in a time of clearing and healing. There is greater Light in the world and it is revealing the most repressed darkness. All the ugliness that has come to the surface is being cleaned. Your home always looks worse when you're deep cleaning.

It's triggering each of us at our very core. It's bringing up childhood memories and generational miasma. You can't take this baggage with you to the next level of evolution.

Even as we are inspired to take action, we're disempowered by our own"stuff". We are at war in our minds, we have insane cabinet members in our heads who threaten to destroy the different departments of our lives.

The news may trigger us, but we're creating our own drama and feeding it with our thoughts. When we stop fighting in ourselves or wrestling with scenarios, we can take clear action.

Years ago I was married to a covert cocaine addict. In order to regain my sanity, I needed to learn to detach from the emotional roller coaster. I made up my own slogan: "Don't React Dramatically - Even If It Seems Dramatic."

If I am triggered, if I am reacting with strong feelings, I am not in present time. I am engaging with a lie. What I am perceiving is not the truth.

I have lost control and I am fighting with the illusion.

We're powerless over the illusion and we're powerless over other people's insanity. We're powerless over what they say and what they tweet and what they sign. But we're not powerless over our own voices, our own votes, and our own actions. We just feel powerless when wrestling with the insanity rather than the solution.

Where Real Power is.

We can regain our internal power in several ways.  First, by stepping back and not engaging with crazy people or crazy headlines. Take time to respond rather than react. Take a break from the noise, turn off your devices and take a walk.

I always reconnect with Consciousness when I'm out in nature, even if it is just noticing trees on city streets. There is a power greater than Faux news. And You, at your Essence, are this power.

When you're reconnected within, you become clear at what your choices are and how you can contribute.

Because this time is not calling us to be in denial or to go back into our caves or bubbles. It is calling us to be fully in our bodies and to participate. You can take truly empowered action when you're aligned with yourself as Consciousness.

The Bigger Picture of What Is Going On.

The birth of a new era requires expansion and contraction.  Progress experiences ebbs and flows.  This feels like the past because we're at a new level of releasing those old patterns. After we've cleaned the kitchen and the living room, we go upstairs. Just because the bedrooms and bathrooms are dirty doesn't mean we haven't been cleaning, we're just on a new floor.

We're not going to back to Nazi Germany because we're America and our basic foundational pattern is freedom. We're seeing these shadows of the past because they've come to the surface to be cleared.

We have checks and balances and we have an inherent sense of our rights. There's more collective empowerment in this country than 1920's and 1930's Europe knew. You cannot control a country founded on rebellion.

Remind yourself that this is 2017, bring yourself into the present moment. In Present Time you are fully connected with yourself as Consciousness. This is where you can transform your reality.

This is where we shall not regret the past (nor wish to shut the door on it). Let the baggage of the past be archived. It's not forgotten, it's acknowledged as useful building blocks to where you are now.

I leave you with the Work of Byron Katie. There's great revelations and relief in this video.

The Curse of Complacency (and the Gift of Desperation)

The Curse of Complacency (and the Gift of Desperation) ©2016 Joan M. Newcomb, CPC

One of the times where we can get stuck on our spiritual path is when everything seems to be going well. We have enough to get by, just not enough to achieve our desires.

We're not in complete survival, but we're not completely happy or satisfied. But we're so better off than (where we were, where others are, where we could be)...

It can actually be a pretty horrible place to exist. And people can stay here for years.

Sweet Briar College, 1920

Complacency is like a big, goosedown duvet covering you and your life - on a warm, summer's day.

Sometimes we're stuck in complacency as a result of trauma. We're not really complacent, we're numb. We're afraid to move. We're terrified of risking our status quo.

A clue to being in this state is - how clear are your dreams and desires? When we're in fear, our vision for the future is a winning lotto ticket, prince charming, someone or something to instantly get you out of this situation.

When we're complacent, we may not even have dreams and desires, we're so disconnected from our essence. Everything looks just fine. What have we to complain about?

Sometimes, as Consciousness, we create an opportunity to break out of this state. Something disastrous happens. A betrayal, a layoff, an accident, a national disaster... it wakes us up.

Sometimes the opportunity creeps up on you, you develop an illness that forces you to tune into your body, a loved one's addiction is revealed, shattering your denial.

Desperation can be a gift, it gets us moving. It gives you the energy to start making positive changes. You can feel more alive in an emergency, because you're more fully present and alert.

And yet some people get addicted to the adrenalin rush of chaos and drama, and instead of breaking out of their rut they dig themselves in even deeper.

Complacency mustn't be confused with the neutrality of Consciousness. At the highest level of Consciousness, there is no good or bad, you're completely detached from pain of what is happening in the physical world. It's like viewing the planet from the International Space Station, you're just in awe of the beauty and wonder of the world.

As Consciousness, we provide opportunities to wake up, and no opinion if we choose to stay asleep. As Consciousness there's no time, so no judgement of how long it's taking.

However, our core purpose for being here is to experience life in the physical, and express ourselves as Consciousness.  If we're numb with complacency or spinning our wheels in continual crisis we're not fully experiencing or expressing from Consciousness.

Now, when we're in our bodies as Consciousness, it feels good. We're enjoying ourselves. We inherently know it's a benevolent Universe. We're amused, we're curious, we're creative.

Our desires look different when we're creating our life as Consciousness. We don't need to be rich and famous. We are rich in relationship, we have prosperous lives.

Our own egos/personalities will hold us back, fearing that if Consciousness is in control, they will die. In truth, an aspect that we may have identified with will dissipate, but we will feel freer and more expansive afterwards.

When we operate as Consciousness, we achieve outcomes greater than old personalities could have imagined.

So if you're in complacency and reading this, know that you have an opportunity to wake up without waiting for a breakdown. You can have a 'high bottom'.

If you're in desperation, use this information to propel you forward to new choices and actions.

You don't have to know how to solve your problems or fix your situation, just take the first step towards the light. Intuitively step towards whatever feels lighter, brighter, clearer, more open. The light is You.

When you connect as Consciousness, you'll find that the answers and solutions have been in You all the time.

Hitting Bottom

Hitting Bottom ©2016 Joan M. Newcomb, CPC

Sometimes your face has to hit the pavement before you turn around and look up.

Sometimes it has to get worse before it gets better.

We're watching a group of people imploding because what they believe is true and real, is not. What they think is powerful, is not. They have no true foundation, so what they are building cannot last.

It's scary to consider they could take the rest of us with them.

But maybe reality has to get just that insane, before we reclaim our power from it.

Do we have to step back and let it self destruct?

Non resistance is the most powerful form of protection. It's when your energy is so light, so transparent, that negative energy passes right through.

Non resistance has also been a powerful tool for social change. Perhaps we need to access our inner Gandhi, our inner Martin Luther King.

In non resisting, we don't feed the madness, we don't participate with crazy.

When you have a loved one who's an addict or alcoholic, you have to step aside as they are bottoming out. They need the consequences of their own actions. If you're not going down with them, they can't blame you for their bottom. But you can be there for them as they're climbing back out.

It's a different story when you're dealing with a narcissist or abuser. There's similar denial when you are entwined in their story, but it's not as clean cut to detach and step aside. There's no bottoming out for them. They're focused on taking you out first.

The most dangerous time for someone in a domestic violence situation is when they are about to leave or have just left. That's when they get killed. The abuse may have only been emotional or threatening before.

If an abuser is leaving, he created a campaign to assassinate your character. He spreads rumors, "she's so cold and unfeeling," "I'm leaving because of her mental cruelty" (when those adjectives really describe himself).

The best way to unfriend a narcissist is to ghost them. To slowly evaporate from their lives. Otherwise they'll do a similar campaign.

In leaving an abuser you have to have a plan. Know where you are going, a safe environment, supportive people. It may take months, secreting money away, a suitcase of clothes, learning the legal implications and prepare for possible reactions.

Narcissists and abusers are extremely resistant to therapy. Narcissists are unable to look at themselves. Abusers feel entitled to treat people the way they do. They'll pretend to respond to treatment and then revert back to their old behaviors the moment they have you back.

When I do the Skybox technique for this current reality, I look down at the field and it's a riot in a rugby match. Players and fans rolling in the mud, the coaches and even the refs standing on the sidelines, arms folded.

Patterns are rising to the surface with the intent to clear and people are getting entangled in them.

I look for the lightbringers and they are dots in the darkness. They seem to be underground, yet creating a network of light.

The information I can access from the Skybox is that, although as players we may feel powerless over the situation, over other people, places and things, it is time to get in touch with out internal power.

As Consciousness we are infinitely powerful. How we hold our own amidst this chaos is to center into our internal power.

As we each do that, it changes the landscape.

When I move up to the Goodyear Blimp, to get a broader perspective, I see the patterns breaking up faster than anticipated. Those in archaic power structures scrambling to get what they can before it all disappears.

When I focus on areas of the field from this higher viewpoint, I can clear those sections. It gives me a sense of power (and knowing where the power comes from, my highest self, not my player self).

I bring that awareness down to the Skybox and it helps me looking down at the scrimmage on the field. I can see the lightbringers walking inbetween the players bashing each other, recognize the actions being taken to restore harmony to the field. It is the ultimate in non-resistance, not engaging with the fight energy but focusing bringing a different vibration to the whole.

I decide to join them, going down first to the sidelines, where I hear the coaches and refs talking. What I thought was inaction is really discussion and planning. Empowered movement is intended.

You can do this for yourself, for your situation. Go up to the Skybox and view your life from the bigger picture and gain wisdom from your higher self. You can bring it back with you in order to respond rather than react, and make choices and take action from more empowered stance.

I'm very curious to see what unfolds in the next few weeks.

Bringing Light Into Darkness (Now more than ever)

Bringing Light Into Darkness (Now more than ever) ©2016 Joan M. Newcomb, CPC

Many years ago, I worked for a small Church.  One night I dreamed that I was outside the Church building in the dark, handing out fliers for our classes. Inside the Church, in the brightly lit staff room, was my co-worker, sitting on the floor with two students.

It pretty much sums up my role in life. I never get to be inside the place of light, I'm always outside telling people about it.

Lightbringers are her to bring Light, to carry the message that there is Light, which means we're always venturing into the darkness.

It happens in relationships, too. They get involved with someone and it's all hearts and flowers, then dark things come to the surface. It happens in jobs, they start working somewhere and corruption surfaces. Not because they found it, but their higher vibration shines light that makes darkness evident.

Someone emailed me the night of the US election, "where's my Parallel Universe now???"  Because in my Meetups I talk about how we have infinite parallel universes and you can change your present experience at any time by stepping into one where things are unfolding in your favor. It's as simple as changing lanes on the freeway.

So I've been reflecting on why I'm in this universe, which appears really traumatic and suckky for the world, rather than one that's more fun and empowering for all.

Because I'm a frigging lightbringer and of course I end up in dark places.

My message to everyone is, not just that there is light, but that you ARE light. You *are* the greater light of Consciousness. There is more Consciousness in the world than every before. Our physical bodies are capable of holding a higher vibration now, we can be more embodied as Consciousness.

This is why it seems that there's greater darkness, because in actuality there's greater Light. It seems like darkness, unconsciousness, corruption, demagogues, fascists, and dictators are gaining power but those patterns are in the process of dissipating.

Yeah, really?? Or are we heading into another 1930's with the rise of Hitler, Stalin, Mussolini, and Tojo?

It seems that way, and the difference now is that there's greater Light. We, individually, are more empowered than ever before. And our ability to communicate with each other is better than ever before. Arab Spring was started by a Tunisian street vendor setting himself on fire, but it was spread by Twitter. Which lead to the collapse of long standing dictatorships throughout the Middle East.

We may feel powerless, but we're not.

We may not all be Lightbringers, blazing trails in the darkness. Our life purpose for some of us may be anchors or stabilizers (creating a container for the new energy to come into form). There are many expressions of Consciousness in this world.

And we are each Light. As we stand in our Light, the world becomes brighter. Darkness disappears in full daylight.

Change can happen quickly nowadays. We can transform reality instantaneously. Let's do so now, and not wait to create an American Spring.

Now more than ever, your unique Light is needed on the planet. Be authentically yourself. Express your uniqueness into the world.

Your light joins our lights and collectively we accelerate the evolution of Consciousness. Try this for the next 7 days and see what happens.!

When Reality Breaks Down

When Reality Breaks Down ©2016 Joan M. Newcomb, CPC

If you look around you, what you see is physical reality. It's been measured, poked and examined. We see rocks and dirt and trees. We're told they're made up of atoms and molecules. Different combinations of molecules make up rocks than dirt, water and air. Fascinating to think that scientists eventually measured something invisible like air, and discovered that oxygen has it's own form of solidity. Air is thinner in high altitude places.

Barite, photo credit: Strekeisen

And then we acknowledge emotional patterns, they've been measured, poked and examined. We recognize that behavior patterns in families go back seven or ten generations, beyond what most of us know about our genealogy. We think we're being unique and new and yet on one level we're just replicating patterns.

Thought patterns have been around for millenia as well. It's said that there's never been an original thought. We read ancient philosophers and their comments are surprisingly modern. The mental level is another part of the complicated construct that is the hologram as we know it.

Our beliefs, our concepts, color the way we view reality. We think our religion is the right one until we get to know people that believe something totally different and realize they're pretty good folk and maybe their soul isn't going to hell after all. We think our family is one way until a family secret gets exposed and our reality is shattered.

Shattered is a good way to describe what it feels like when your pictures of reality disintegrate. It's like the scaffolding of your life is withdrawn, and things collapse inside. Anyone who has been through a divorce knows this. Ways you define yourself, your identity, get removed and it is very disorienting.

When you take away those belief constructs, what you have left is physical reality, which is why nature feels so restorative. It simply is. It's a break from the insane overlay of human dynamic.

We're starting to experience what's beyond the invisible, beyond what can be measured and examined. When you bring out the microscopes (or the telescopes) you can't see it.
It's been philosophized about, but you can research research all the religions and cultures in history and only get a minute sense of what we're experiencing today.

We use euphemisms for this, Light and Truth, but words can't fully explain what is happening.

It's how an aquarium of fish must feel when a hand reaches in and moves the ornaments about.

Except we're not fish, although our bodies are. And we're not separate from the hand. We are the hand.

Consciousness creates reality by focusing. Focusing creates density. There is a spectrum to it, but not the separation we believe. It's all Consciousness focusing into density.

In density we experience time and space, a historic storyline to our reality. We feel like this has been this way forever. When Consciousness shifts focus, we feel it. Greater Consciousness comes into form and we feel more real. And what's not real seems to break down and go away.

Hands in the fish tank stir up all sorts of muck and mire, which gets siphoned out to clean up the water.

What's going on around the world is a kind of rearranging of the fish tank, a siphoning up of the muck and mire that no longer serves us. The untruths that people have clung to as reality.

As Consciousness comes more into form, we sense our unity (because we're all Consciousness). We also sense our individual power (because as Consciousness we are infinitely powerful). So on one hand we're experiencing more of a collective connection. We see how we are 'better together', how we can help one another. And on the other hand we are rebelling against anything that impedes our personal sense of autonomy.  This planet is such a delicious dichotomy!

And anything that is the opposite of Consciousness, dominance vs empowerment, divisiveness instead of individuality, unity instead of identical... is what is going away.

You can sense the difference. Consciousness feels good. It feels expansive. It feels joyous. When you're operating from Consciousness you feel lighthearted, clear, confident.  Unconsciousness feels constricted and limiting, fearful and powerless.

It's a component of this world that is very evident right now. It is being illuminated as Consciousness comes into form. It's in the process of being cleared. Our shadows are being exposed but will disappear in full sunlight.

It can be very uncomfortable as the muckiness of humanity comes to light. We think that other aspects of reality will erupt and break down as well. Our bodies aren't dying but aspects of our egos are.

If you are experiencing any breaking down in any aspects of your life, the discomfort is palpable. It will pass, but it may take time. It will be a relief as the distortion dissipates.

The greater aspect of yourself *is* Consciousness, and that part of You can coax the little you through this.

Be easy with yourself. Implement super self care, doing self comforting things. Take time to step out in nature and just breathe.

This is the darkness just before dawn. We are huddled 'neath our covers wanting our last bits of sleep. But waking up is a wonderful thing. Come into the sunlight, a joyous world awaits.

You Are Loved, Lovable and Worthy of Love

You Are Loved, Lovable and Worthy of Love ©2015 Joan M. Newcomb

I am sitting in a downtown Starbucks. It is not designed to hang out in. It has hard metal seats and tiny row tables. It's across from a city park, where city denizens live.

A woman comes in with a huge stroller and a tiny toddler.  Her daughter has a grey T-shirt with a big strawberry on it. She is a bright spark of light amongst beings who have accumulated many shades of gray.

I see a lot of diversity, but not a lot of happiness.  There's a lot of pain on the streets outside of Starbucks.

Street child in Kolkata with a mango!

Another woman with a stroller comes in.  She has an infant in a front pack, a two year old, wearing an identical gray T-shirt with strawberry and a four year old in a blue cotton dress. The two year old dances around the other toddler, delighted to be T-shirt twins.  The other toddler, clearly an only child, sidles up to her mom and raises her arms to be carried.

The little girls are bright sparks of light.  That is, their light is easily visible.  Yet every single person in Starbucks and on the street were bright, shining, infants and toddlers once. They were all loved, lovable and worthy of love.

Mother Theresa once said that she saw Jesus in every poor person's eyes.

There was a form of torture POWs were put in cages where they couldn't sit down but they couldn't stand up. They had to stay crouched for impossibly long periods of time.  When they were released, it was painful to stand.

This is a great analogy for staying in pain or poverty or other dysfunctional patterns.  After spending many years in darkness, moving to a healthy stance, being visible and in the light, is painful.

More and more light is coming into the world.  More and more darkness is being exposed.  It is coming to the surface to be cleared.

If you are going through dark times, if you are experience extreme discomfort, know that it is the greater part of You emerging.  The bright spark of light that you were, You still are.  Yet is is no longer a spark but a shining star, the brilliance equalling our own Sun.

Breathe and allow your Light to shine. Breathe and allow your heart to open. You are unique. You are special. You are loved, lovable, and worthy of love.

Everyone is.

Reclaim Your Inner Baby

Reclaim Your Inner Baby ©2015 Joan Newcomb

I was just in the city where I was born, part of a mission to scatter my moms ashes to all the places where she lived.

I was so focused on other things, like my parents and my older brothers living there, that it didn't occur to me that it was my birthplace, until I was on the train to the airport.

Why did I create being born in West Berlin, during the Cold War,  where it was my Dad's job to talk people into defecting?

I'm a lightbringer. And lightbringer are destined to go into dark places. Makes sense I would start I one.

So I tuned into myself as an infant, and was surprised (don't know why) to sense this big ball of light.

Infant photo 1912

All babies are bright lights. Just look at 'em, they are pure energy, pure joy, pure wonder. They are Consciousness, rediscovering the world.

So I tuned into my baby Self and felt that energy within me.  I felt how darkened and crusty and old I have become.  Years of accumulated pictures and concepts and experiences. Reclaiming my baby self, bringing that new energy within, was like filling the tanks with high octane gas.

This is who we really are. We are bright lights, bundles of joy. Our essence is wonder, happiness, curiosity, love.  That never goes away. It just gets covered over.

We can access our inner infant and use the energy to heal and renew ourselves. We can egain our awareness of why we are here, and what our purpose is.

It's pretty simple. You can sit quietly, with your eyes closed, and inwardly imagine your baby self. Feel the energy you were when you first got here.  See in your mind, your bright eyes and toothless smile.

Bring that awareness into your center and let it expand outward, filling up your body and surrounding you.

Let the years of accumulated denser energy dissolve, disintegrate, dissipate.  Bring in your awareness as Consciousness. Let yourself know why you are here. The answer may be very simple, a feeling or an image.

Sit with this.

Do this for the next 7 days. You can do this once, or any number of times. You may get instantaneous insight, or increasing Knowingness over the week. You can just let your light shine and clear any darkness or you can deliberately direct it to places You want to dissolve.

Try this for the next week and see what happens,

Sexuality, Gender and Consciousness

Sexuality, Gender and Consciousness ©2015 Joan M. Newcomb

On our radio show, Conscious Conversations with Joan and Janet, the theme for February is about Love.  We started with emotions, then love, and our most recent show was on sexuality.

Emotions are the language of the body.  Consciousness only experiences joy.  Body/personality feels -and emits - a wide range of vibrations.  It expresses itself with emotion.  Babies cry when they're wet, they cry when they're tired, they cry when they're hungry.  As adults, our bodies do the same, they just have a wider 'vocabulary'.

Love is a heart-opening experience.  We can't truly love without being able to merge energies with another.  Consciousness IS Love with a capital L.  In searching for love, we're actually seeking to experience that greater, infinite connection with the Essence of who we all are.  In expressing Love we are giving from the greater aspect of ourselves.

Our sexual preference is more than a biological urge to procreate, although conception brings Love into form in the most physical way.  It's also about Love.  Attraction is both genetic and psychological.   Gender is about identification.

What is happening on the the planet is that the higher vibration of Consciousness is coming more into physical Form.  It's more than just increased energetic sunshine, it's also a greater inner resonance. As this brighter light emanates from within, it illuminates shadows, it disintegrates limitations.  Things are no longer black and white.  There's an entire spectrum available to us.

So now we have beings coming into form that don't identify with the sex characteristics of the body that they're inhabiting.  On one hand, this is confusing to me as I see our bodies as genetically designed for us.  As Consciousness we create our reality down to the smallest detail.

When I step back and observe from the perspective of Consciousness, I get greater understanding of what is going on.  On one level it looks possibly chemical - that there's so much added in our food and environment that it affects hormonal development. But on another level it's about the creativity of Consciousness.

As Consciousness we can create in the blink of an eye.  As Consciousness, thoughts instantaneously become form.  In the physical realm, manifestation is slowed down, things take time to change.  These infinitely capable and creative beings can't blink their eyes and shape shift after they've embodied here.

Another aspect of this is that as Consciousness everything is harmonious.  In form, we experience dichotomy and discomfort.  We create challenging situations for the fun of it. We come into difficult circumstances because, as Infinite beings, love the creative conundrum.

A voice in the back of my head asks why this should even *be* a problem.  As we radiate greater Consciousness, identity roles dissipate.  Our hearts are opening to more and more possibilities.  As we accept others right to choose, we're allowing more options for ourselves - in everything and anything in our lives.

Consciousness *is* Love. You are Consciousness. You ARE Love. You created your body from Love.  Love *is* the life force energy in everything.  Anything that doesn't appear loving, is the shadow side of Love.  Shine light on it and it will disappear or transform.

Here's a powerful exercise for this week.  Sit still and tune into yourself as Consciousness within.  Notice what it feels like.  Notice where in your body you feel it.  Imagine this energy increasing.  Feel it emanating outward.  Sit in this experience for as long as you feel like it.

The next step, after you've had some time to feel it from within, is to imagine it radiating to all aspects of your life.  Anywhere you experience conflict, see it being enveloped in this warmth and light.

You don't have to assign it the label of Love.  You don't have to love your enemies, love your stepmother, love your mortgage bank.  You just have to emanate this vibration of Consciousness to the situation or circumstance that includes these things.

It's best not to have preconceived notions about what you want to happen - that's placing limitations on the results.  Remain curious.  Miracles will happen when you do this!