(c) 20108 Joan M. Newcomb
Just walked to town during a snow storm (wimpy by New England standards, very exciting by Seattle standards)! I'm writing this from the libary for a small break before walking home.
It was quite an adventure. I bundled myself up, taped plastic bags around the bottom of my jeans, put on earmuffs, a hat, and pulled the hood up on my stadium coat. My husband's snow gloves were a smart addition - kept my hands warm because of the extra room in the fingers!
I had a jolly time walking. My hat ended up being low on my forehead so I couldn't see very well. It was like being inside a snowglobe. Just me, my thoughts, and my Expanded Self.
I wanted to have a conversation about the issues I've been working on - fear, foundation, the need to be being taken care of (a driving force since I was 22), to name a few. The thing is, my Expanded Self responded immediately with one sentence to each issue, so it wasn't much of a talk.
Fear is a body issue, bodies are concerned about survival as life and death is very real to them. I got an immediate picture of the whole game, with bodies being a part, and the programming that holds everything together. But this is an illusion, bodies are an illusion, survival is an illusion. How can Tibetan lamas levitate or control their body tempatures in artic conditions, how can Indian gurus stop their hearts and start them again, how can there be spontaneous healing, people defying the statistics for AIDS and cancer, if this were a solid and set reality?
Foundation is within. When I asked about this I felt solid in my lower abdomen. I realized I was focused and asking this from my heart, but the response was lower. First chakra. Except chakras are an illusion, too. But this is my focusing point, this illusion of a body, so it's my foundation within the physical.
The need to be taken care of. I immediately got that all my needs *are* taken care of. Everything that unfolds is perfect, my Expanded Self is creating this all down to the smallest detail. Everything *is* being taken care of. But, but, but...
Not a satisfying response to a body that wants to feel secure and loved. (You ARE loved, I immediately hear). I want to win the lotto, so I'm financially taken care of forever (or at least for the 26 annual payouts). I don't want any more surprises or heartaches in my life. So that means my kids have to be happy and taken care of for the rest of *their* lives, too. Or at least until they're 73 and 76, since an on-line insurance quiz said I'd live to be 104. Everything has to be hearts and flowers for everyone.
Sounds like I want to live in a Disney movie, without the villians.
Even writing about this has triggered a deep, deep thread in me. It's probably a core resonance for everyone, stemming from infancy when we *needed* to be taken care of, or die. And I realize this loops back to everything I've been writing about - this is an illusion, the body is an illusion, this is part of the survival program that holds this illusion together.
I got the picture of one of those robotic babies that they given teenagers in Health Class (okay at schools with big budgets; other kids just get 5# bags of flour). The babies are programmed to cry, to need to be changed, be fed, and will stop working if these needs aren't responded to. We're all walking around in giant robotic babies. And mine takes over typing this blogpost occasionally.
What I do about this is to see myself as both the one with the need and the one able to take care of it. There's a wise, all knowing part of me, my inner Obi-Wan, and when I imagine it stepping forward, the needy part of me is comforted.
The library is closing early (no surprise), so I think Obi-Wan and C3PO are going to walk home now.
Showing posts with label foundations. Show all posts
Showing posts with label foundations. Show all posts
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Tuesday, December 2, 2008
Foundations
©2008 Joan M. Newcomb
I'm noticing that whatever people felt were their anchor point has become unstable nowadays. There have been many times in my life where either everything collapsed to my foundation, or my foundation was decimated entirely.
People who have sought security in money, jobs and investments are finding things evaporating before their eyes. Those who have counted on relationships are finding their loved ones morphing into completely different characters. Things we've believed are solid and real are turning out not to be, thus shaking our belief systems to their core.
In reality, this has been going on our entire lives, but usually with just one thing at a time. And we usually have a year or two or three to get over it before the next challenge comes. Now it seems all is being called into question at once, and it seems to be happening with everyone, magnifying the experience for all.
It's all happening because we're coming to a new level of awareness. It's an increased inner responsibility and a connection with a God-Self within. We're growing up. We're becoming Conscious. It'll be wonderful once we get there, but how do we manage the discomfort as the old illusions fall away?
A technique that I've relied on for half my life has been grounding. I create/imagine an energy connection from my first chakra/lower abdomen down to the center of the earth. It acts as both an anchor or stabilizer, and also an energy release. When I'm grounded, it usually feels like gravity has increased. I'm less knocked over by whatever is going on around me. My body feels safer when grounded. And, by imagining it like a trash chute, I can release negative energy out of my space and down to the center of the earth to be recycled.
I still believe that this can be an effective technique for many people. However, my hologram is changing, my realm of energy work is expanding, and so my technique of grounding needs upgrading as well.
When I first started working with Matrix Energetics, I discovered that I needed 'multidimensional' grounding. I was engaging in Parallel Universes and parallel dimensions, so all my parallel selves required grounding as well! Back then I didn't question where I was grounding to, I just did it.
I asked Mark Dunn about grounding and he said he doesn't ground to the center of the earth any more because 'the earth is dying'. I don't think that's true, but I do think that energy is being withdrawn from the hologram, so it feels that way to most. I think there will always be a playground Earth but it will feel different.
What started happening for me this summer is whenever I grounded, not just my body but my environment, I'd experience the 'Matrix wave' instead. The center of the earth disappeared and it seemed like there was nothing below but outer space. Oops! Maybe we really are in a giant holodeck on the Enterprise after all!
Mark teaches 'dropping down', moving from your head to your heart, but it also involves dropping into your solar plexus and your lower abdomen. It's kind of like grounding into your first chakra rather than grounding from it. Dropping down happened automatically with me when I grounded to the center of the earth. The grounding into my first chakra is taking conscious practice, however.
A visual image that came to me as I was considering how to conclude this article was swimming in a strong current (which we all are doing at this moment). Trying to have your feet on the ground isn't possible (or necessarily productive). However if you stay centered and focused within yourself, you'll maintain the presence of mind to navigate your way through the flow.
Which all comes down to bringing your energy and focus back inside. Your foundation isn't in money, job, relationships or an external God. It's in You. Try connecting to your inner You (or U, for Universe, I like to say) and see how that helps you in the coming days and months.
I'm noticing that whatever people felt were their anchor point has become unstable nowadays. There have been many times in my life where either everything collapsed to my foundation, or my foundation was decimated entirely.
People who have sought security in money, jobs and investments are finding things evaporating before their eyes. Those who have counted on relationships are finding their loved ones morphing into completely different characters. Things we've believed are solid and real are turning out not to be, thus shaking our belief systems to their core.
In reality, this has been going on our entire lives, but usually with just one thing at a time. And we usually have a year or two or three to get over it before the next challenge comes. Now it seems all is being called into question at once, and it seems to be happening with everyone, magnifying the experience for all.
It's all happening because we're coming to a new level of awareness. It's an increased inner responsibility and a connection with a God-Self within. We're growing up. We're becoming Conscious. It'll be wonderful once we get there, but how do we manage the discomfort as the old illusions fall away?
A technique that I've relied on for half my life has been grounding. I create/imagine an energy connection from my first chakra/lower abdomen down to the center of the earth. It acts as both an anchor or stabilizer, and also an energy release. When I'm grounded, it usually feels like gravity has increased. I'm less knocked over by whatever is going on around me. My body feels safer when grounded. And, by imagining it like a trash chute, I can release negative energy out of my space and down to the center of the earth to be recycled.
I still believe that this can be an effective technique for many people. However, my hologram is changing, my realm of energy work is expanding, and so my technique of grounding needs upgrading as well.
When I first started working with Matrix Energetics, I discovered that I needed 'multidimensional' grounding. I was engaging in Parallel Universes and parallel dimensions, so all my parallel selves required grounding as well! Back then I didn't question where I was grounding to, I just did it.
I asked Mark Dunn about grounding and he said he doesn't ground to the center of the earth any more because 'the earth is dying'. I don't think that's true, but I do think that energy is being withdrawn from the hologram, so it feels that way to most. I think there will always be a playground Earth but it will feel different.
What started happening for me this summer is whenever I grounded, not just my body but my environment, I'd experience the 'Matrix wave' instead. The center of the earth disappeared and it seemed like there was nothing below but outer space. Oops! Maybe we really are in a giant holodeck on the Enterprise after all!
Mark teaches 'dropping down', moving from your head to your heart, but it also involves dropping into your solar plexus and your lower abdomen. It's kind of like grounding into your first chakra rather than grounding from it. Dropping down happened automatically with me when I grounded to the center of the earth. The grounding into my first chakra is taking conscious practice, however.
A visual image that came to me as I was considering how to conclude this article was swimming in a strong current (which we all are doing at this moment). Trying to have your feet on the ground isn't possible (or necessarily productive). However if you stay centered and focused within yourself, you'll maintain the presence of mind to navigate your way through the flow.
Which all comes down to bringing your energy and focus back inside. Your foundation isn't in money, job, relationships or an external God. It's in You. Try connecting to your inner You (or U, for Universe, I like to say) and see how that helps you in the coming days and months.
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