Upgrading God

 Upgrading God ©2021 Joan M. Newcomb, CPC

Last weekend I was at a conference where a white judge from Texas (not acting in his professional capacity but using his legal expertise to manipulate our voting system) wanted to enforce a rigid and antiquated interpretation of the group's guidelines. It excludes the experience of a large number of participants. He did something like this last year, which led to 12 months of discord and contention within the organization.

This year the majority of attendees expressed a desire to be inclusive. He managed to get the last word in before the first gathering was ending, with an attempt to back up his claims using gender specific terms for God.

His viewpoint is that if we expand our interpretation, the organization will die.

What's actually dying, is old paradigms of power, old paradigms of gender, old paradigms of privilege and exclusivity. It's his version of reality that is dying. His attempt to exert control, if successful, would lead to the death of the organization.

But that's not going to happen, because the majority of members are committed to growth and clarity.

I'm working with a mentee who was raised in a conservative religious cult, and the male gendered version of God was actually preventing her spiritual growth. I suggested calling God "she", and it completely expanded her worldview. She uses "Goddess" in her prayers and feels more trusting that it's a benevolent Universe.

A few years ago, I went through yet another frigging upgrade from the 5D one I already went through in 2006. I'd already experienced the Universe being benevolent. I liked that version of spiritual software. But in 2016, my version of God expanded. As a child I was raised Presbyterian, with the old man with a beard God who was also punishing, non-forgiving, and withholding. In my early twenties, it changed to the Universe, that I could call on ("Hey, U"!) any time and feel everything surrounding me become sharper and brighter. When I went to Findhorn times in my late thirties, I experienced being enveloped in Love, and when I studied with David Spangler in my early forties, I experienced that same Love again, falling into it fearing I would lose myself and yet finding myself more clearly defined within it.

But then it became Consciousness, and I Am Consciousness, both encompassing and within. And it wasn't just accessing God Within, it was Consciousness within and the absolute knowing that I Am Consciousness.

And that really tripped me up. It was so foreign to the belief that God is a power greater than you, an intelligence greater than myself, something to surrender to, turn my will and my life over to the care of...

How do I do that when it's me? Consciousness doesn't have a heirarchy. There's no more than or less than. You don't give up space to it. It doesn't make sense to. 

So I spent a good four years arm wrestling with it, feeling almost atheist. 

And now it's turning around. I Am Consciousness and the part of me that is arm wrestling myself is my body personality, my horse. When I operate as Consciousness, everything lines up and manifests easily and effortlessly.

Consciousness is greater than the Hologram. It's greater than the avatar playing in the hologram. And yet it is the life force within every cell that makes up the character that is me and the seemingly solid objects within the hologram.

There is no power in the hologram and to try to shadow box with it will make you feel powerless.

Drop the fight and more possibilities open up. 

But I also realize that this experience of Consciousness is not fixed. It expands, it contracts. Because it's Earth the opposite will feel true. 

We're all going through a Consciousness upgrade. For some of us we've gone to our general settings and clicked "Install now".  For some of us it's going to happen while we sleep and when we wake up we'll discover half of our apps no longer work.

In my experience, it's a lot more pleasant to click 'Install now" and be in agreement with the expansion than to remain unconscious.

What do you want to do?

Don't Give Up The Ship

Don't Give Up The Ship ©2016 Joan M. Newcomb, CPC

When weather permits, I take daily walks for inspiration and to regain my connection as Consciousness. There's a house on my route that has a flag hanging off it that says, "Don't Give Up The Ship."

I think about it's message. Don't give up. Don't jump ship. Don't give up the ship.

The ship, to me, is the body you have manifested in which to experience physical reality. We hit times that seem insurmountable, so incredibly painful that we can't go on.

Yet if we do hang on, these times will pass. Life will get better.

Even if we can't imagine how, or can't know when.

As Consciousness, life is something to enjoy. We create being here for the fun of it, for the joy of it. To savor the sun on our face, the taste of chocolate, we love this world.

As Consciousness we are always aware of the bigger picture. We know this lifetime passes in the blink of an eye. We know we are always connected.

Those time that we hit a 'point of no return' in the physical, what is really happening is a dream is dying, an expectation of what it is supposed to be like, an aspect of our personality, our identity that we are attached to. Those things are dying, those limitations are breaking open and something bigger is coming in.

When I was sixteen, I was hospitalized for depression. I was there for three months and they released me with a bottle of antidepressants. I took the bus to my old high school and got a 'dear Joan' letter. I went to the McDonald's next door and downed them all.

I was in so much pain I couldn't think of anything else to do.

I was in a coma for three days. While I don't remember having an out of body experience, I woke up exhilarated. (My mother thought it was from taking all those antidepressants).

So many things have unfolded in the years since then. So much love and many life experiences that wouldn't have happened if I'd jumped ship.

Don't give up the ship to depression or despair. The part of you that can't see beyond the present circumstances is not the one who should be captaining the vessel. Let yourself as Consciousness do the steering.

It is as simple as shifting awareness to above the cloud cover.

However, it may take help to get there. These are tough times and you don't need to get through it by yourself. Don't be alone with your thinking. Be out among people who care and understand. Binge watch comedies.

For myself, on my daily walks I step through doors to parallel universes. I shift my reality to one where things are unfolding in my favor. To where everyone lives happily ever after.

When we navigate as Consciousness, we realize this is a benevolent Universe.

If we all try this, we can create massive change in our lives. Play with this and watch your collective reality transform!

It Falls Apart Before It Gets Better

It Falls Apart Before It Gets Better ©2016 Joan M. Newcomb, CPC

Doesn't it seem like everything falls apart before it gets better? And when you're in the midst of it all, it feels like it will never, ever, get better.

People will come to see me with a laundry list of things they want transformed in their life. We work together. They may or may not notice any changes during the session. They go home. And everything falls apart.

And then it gets better.

Well, that sucks. Why does that happen? Why can't we wave a magic wand, go 'bibbity-bobbity-boo' and step into being instant millionaires?

(Let me tell you, win Mega or Power, and your life falls apart there, too).

Step back and look at your life as if it were a structure. It's a house that you've built. Your 'laundry list' reads: 'New roof, new plumbing, refinish floors, sunroom, master bathroom...'

What would your house look like if you initiated all that changes at once? There'd be no roof, holes in walls, floors stripped.  Even if it's going to be good on the other side, it's suckky to live in a house during a remodel.

Sometimes we know we called this growth period in. Often we feel like it's thrust upon us. And it doesn't always look like it's happening inside our 'house'.  A loved one gets ill. We get laid off.

The structure of our life is more than our bodies. It's the bigger foundation.

When growth occurs, it's because we're bringing a greater aspect of ourSelves in. Consciousness is a bright light, a high vibration, it is the Essence of who we truly are, more than this individual body and lifetime.

In my original training I learned we could only bring about 10% of us as Consciousness into our bodies. I believe that has changed and we are bringing much more in now.

This light reveals cracks in our structure, areas that can't contain our brightness. We are expanding to encompass more of who We are.

And, it shows up with shifts and changes in all areas of our lives. A loved one gets ill. We get to hold a bigger space for them in their experience. We grow, become more compassionate, gain greater emotional depth.

We lose our job, which seems to rock our underpinnings. And then we learn that our career isn't our identity, money shows up from different places, we have the opportunity to expand to new fields and new coworkers or environments.

Don't resist the light coming in. Don't resist the things that are disintegrating. In fact, your Light can strengthen weakened structures when you don't resist it.

Lean into the benevolent light. It is You, as Consciousness. Your life is growing into something new and better.

...you are growing into You.

Giving and Receiving

(c) 2010 Joan M. Newcomb

There's a worldwide, grassroots network called Freecycle whose mission is to keep usable items out of landfills.  It's really quite an amazing phenomenon. People give away items they don't need, and people ask for items they want.

When I first participated, I gave away some (fairly good) furniture, because someone had gifted me theirs.  It was quite exhilarating to see the looks on recipients' faces; they couldn't quite believe they could have a futon sofabed or a recliner just for doing me the favor of carting it away!

And it's equally wonderful to see people receive items they've asked for, be it school supplies for their kids or an item for their home.  All freely given, freely received, no strings attached.

The energy of giving makes you feel better, pulls your attention away from your own troubles and into the abundant flow of life.  In 12 step programs, newcomers are encouraged to take on a task, like making coffee for their group.  It gets them doing something that other's appreciate.  And gives them a feeling of accomplishment that they're probably not experiencing in the un-manageability of their life's storyline (that caused them to come to the 12 steps in the first place).

Giving actually strengthens your connection to Source and increases your ability to receive abundance.  It's the principle that tithing is based on.  If you give away 10%, you find your 90% expanding.  Even if you can't quite manage 10% of your income, you can give your time or your compassion.  Gifts of service count towards the Flow.

As with everything, balance is needed.  We all know burned-out givers, who volunteer for everything yet can't make ends meet.  They need to learn to moderate their giving with receiving.

Receiving is essential for prosperity.  You need to be able to allow the flow come to you as well as out of you.  Gracious receiving validates people who give to you.  Even if it's a compliment. If someone says something nice to you, accept it and thank them (even if your tendency is to minimize it).

Receiving well sends a message to your subconscious that it's an abundant and benevolent universe.  It also increases your connection to Source.

A couple simple steps to increase your participation in the Flow:
*Give $1 or $5 or $10 away to a worthy cause.  It can be anything.  Put it in one of those plexiglas boxes at the convenience store, stuff it in the tip jar at Starbucks.  Do this often enough and the energy builds and opportunities arise as well.
*Notice how the Universe is giving to you.  Receive compliments.  Receive sunny days (yes, the Universe did make the sun shine just for you)!  Appreciate your surroundings, notice synchronicities.  Breathe them in and notice your inner expansion.

Try these for a week and see what happens!  And email me the results!