When we go through a Consciousness Shift, it can be pretty disorienting. We're sensing and experiencing things so differently than before. It can feel expansive, joyous, overwhelming.
Our minds kick into high gear trying to figure out what is going on and how to handle it. Our minds want to create some sort of equilibrium, but they only know what they've experience before, so they end up directing us back to our previous state.
When I went to Findhorn the first time, the shift was seismic. I started feeling it when I booked my Experience Week, six months earlier. Now I see that I was welcoming in the greater light of Consciousness.
A couple months before I left for Scotland, I started feeling enveloped in overwhelming love. I also started having premonitions about my time there. I was concerned I was going to fall in love if I went there. It seemed pretty clichéd, as everyone falls in love when they go to Findhorn.
So of course, I fell in love with one of my focalisers, who subsequently turned out to be gay, which eventually transmuted into a friendship.
What I see now is that I couldn't just receive the enveloping Love of Consciousness (it turns out that the focalisers meditate on their upcoming Experience groups, blessing them with love, and that's what I'd been experiencing). I was viewing it through my mind's preconceived notion that it had to be expressed through an "in-love" relationship.
The second time I felt this same enveloping Love, it was after leaving a dysfunctional relationship. I had about nine months of this extraordinary experience, which then dissipated when I fell "in-love" with someone who checked all the boxes of my mind's expectations (tall and wealthy were two of the boxes), but who was spiritually incompatible. When it ended, it was traumatic, and I plunged into a pool of shame and depression.
The evolving Consciousness Shift I've been experiencing for the last decade has been different. It's called into question everything I believed was solid and real. Whereas my old techniques brought me more into the density of form (I would say that "gravity increased" when I used them), my new experiences shift me into a reality that is expansive and buoyant.
My mind thought this was awfully flakey. It judged me as being "ungrounded". But when I tried to use my old techniques, they don't work on this level. It's like trying to run MS-DOS on a MacBook Air. Or picking up a landline expecting to send a text message.
All around us you can see minds losing their shit and trying to redirect reality back to what was familiar to them. And when you stop and look at what used to be, it wasn't really all that fun or lovely. It was probably pretty painful.
The rules for operating in this new reality are, in many ways, opposite of the way things were before.
Our minds are going to get us to where ever we want to go. Even if they're thinking "outside the box", they're still thinking. They're trying to figure it out.
The solution is to be intuitive, and improvisational. Exploring with curiosity. Being present without expectations.
If you'd like to learn more about how to do this, check out my free video series here.
